My story, in short
Where I was
I was uncomfortable in my own skin and believed I'd never feel confident again.
What changed
I stopped making excuses and stopped waiting for motivation. I just showed up, even on the days I didn't feel like it.
Where I am
35kg lighter, but the real change was my mindset. I believe in myself now.
Read my full story
Where I was
I wasn't always big. I was quite little before, and I never thought twice about my body. Then slowly, without really noticing, I fell into habits that weren't looking after me. Comfort food when I felt low. Living for the weekend. No plan, just getting through the week until Friday.
Somewhere along the way I stopped feeling like myself. I was so uncomfortable in my own skin, and I genuinely believed I would never feel confident again. That's a lonely thing to carry around, and I carried it quietly.
I knew something had to change, but I was scared to even step foot in a gym. I had no idea what I was doing or how to use any of the equipment, and I was sure everyone could tell. I went anyway, because staying the same felt worse.
Then I'd fall back into my old ways with food and stop showing up, because I couldn't see any progress. Every time, I told myself I'd failed again. What I didn't understand yet is that you can't stick to something for a month and expect proper results. I wasn't failing. I just hadn't been shown how, or given it long enough.
If any of this sounds like you, I see you. I was you.
The turning point
It wasn't one big moment. It was a quiet, uncomfortable realisation: if I wanted my life to change, and I wanted to feel confident in my own skin again, I had to change the way I was living.
I had to be honest with myself and stop making excuses for my behaviour, because I definitely was. To make a change, I had to drop the bad habits and actually do what I said I wanted.
So I stopped waiting for motivation, because motivation comes and goes. I started relying on discipline instead. If I said I was going to do something, I did it.
That's when everything started to change.
The hard middle
Everybody wants the end result. Nobody wants to actually put in the work, because it's not easy. If it was, everyone would do it.
I'm not here to bullsh*t you and say life was a breeze, or that it got easier once the weight started coming off. It didn't. I had bad days, bad weeks, and days where I fell back into old habits.
What kept me going was not sitting there hating myself over an off meal. I got back on plan and kept going, because I knew I could do it, and the girl I used to be would be proud.
People don't see the days you don't feel like showing up. But those are the days that matter the most. The countless, repetitive days are what bring you closer to your goal.
Where I am now
I'm 35kg lighter, but this was never just about the weight. The biggest change was in my mindset.
I used to make excuses, wait for motivation and give up the second I didn't see results. Now I trust myself. I know that if I say I'm going to do something, I'll do it. I don't need to feel perfect or be in the mood. I just show up.
I stopped being scared of the gym. An off day doesn't ruin everything anymore, and I don't talk to myself the way I used to. I'm patient with the process, and kind to the girl who's still working on it.
The scale was only a small part of it. The real win is that I'm confident in my own skin, and I know I can do hard things. That's the shift I want for you too, and it's why I became a coach.
